Now would be a good time to note the many things I am grateful for:
My parents, for being so accepting and supportive of me, especially during the past couple of years during my transition. They’ve been patient, loving, caring, and empathetic….and above all else, they’ve been good listeners, without ever judging me.
Despite how hard it has been for them to lose their son and gain a daughter, they never judged me and were always and still are supportive.
And of course, there is no way I could have done this without support from friends and mentors:
Garrett was there for the first year of my transition, spending literally hundreds of hours on the phone with me, sometimes 3-4 hours at a time, per day, during the earlier stages, when I was constantly struggling with talking myself down from emotional ledges. He was generous enough to offer enormous amounts of time to patiently help me sort through my old traumas and unprocessed emotions.
And of course, Callan, the current person who shows me endless patience and empathy, helping me daily with my ego, shame, and struggles. She has somehow managed to put all of our conversations in perspective, constantly galvanizing the work I’ve done in the recent months into legible bits for me to digest and hence grow stronger and own my own story.
From Katie Kaboom videos to Brene Brown tapes, she has given me so much, and shared so many tools and techniques she had acquired in her years with me in such a generous manner. I wouldn’t be where I am today if it weren’t for all the time she spent with me on a daily basis on the phone or through email exchanges in the past year, guiding me with her wisdom and helping me see the obstacles that block me from my own happiness.
My coworkers like Arly and Bhavini; my friend Mel, who accompanied me to Esalen last year; my sister in law, Debbie, who shared with me how happy Sasha and Devin were after I played with them all day last weekend…and the members from my old transgender discussion group at the South Bay LGBT Center…
My friends Ammie, Shawna, Ilene, Nikki, Sabrina…you girls are the best!
Thank you for being there and touching me when it mattered most….when I was so vulnerable and sharing, you guys just sat there with me in the dark and were there for me.
I want to dedicate this post to all of those who have been there for me in the past couple of years, during a very difficult and rewarding time of change in my life……
Thank you all.